family

Our family has grown!

It’s…TWINS! Puppies that is 😉 This September we welcomed two Cavalier King Charles Spaniel puppies to the Laxo family. Named affectionately for the mischievous Weasley twins (hello fellow Harry Potter fans), Fred and George have already weaseled their way into our hearts. After infertility, losing two pregnancies, and deciding to move forward with a childfree […]

Living Childfree

“What will you give birth to this year?” At the end of 2017, a friend asked me this question when I told her I was having surgery to remove my fallopian tubes, finalizing our decision to remain childfree. I may never give birth to a living child, but I can birth ideas, creative work, projects […]

Embracing Other-ness

“…to the mother within all of us – let her free to love, nurture, and heal so that we may all be better at raising each other” -Cleo Wade I am a childless mother. My children died in my womb, and as the years tick by, I will never say “Stop growing! You’re growing up […]

Freedom in the New Year

For most of my life, I assumed that I would be a mother, raising a wild, creative crew of young feisty children, my house filled with noise and love. Since our earliest days together, Ben and I would talk about our future kids, joking about how they’d better have musical talent, arguing over how many […]

What Now?

“Ten years from now, make sure you can say that you chose your life, you didn’t settle for it.”  ― Mandy Hale The Single Woman: Life, Love, and a Dash of Sass Think about your life in the future. Imagine that everything has gone as well as it possibly could. You have worked hard and succeeded at […]

Mother

The world sees the motherwho pushes, breathing through her pain, birthingwho tenderly caresses a smooth, small facewho nourishes her child at her breastwho tells the story to her son of how he came into her lifewho watches her daughter grow into a womanThe wiping of noses and buttsthe lack of sleepthe inability to quiet the screaming discontentkisses given to mend boo booshugs […]

When the Holidays Hurt

The holiday season is joyful for most, filled with cheer, happiness, reflecting on the past year with gratitude, and looking forward to the coming year with hope, excitement, and the promise of a clean slate. But for some, the impending holidays and new year break open a wound that may have just begun to heal, […]

Tribe

 We crave a tight-knit social network, people who see your true self and accept that self wholeheartedly. When you find this, you’ve found your tribe. Some are lucky and belong to many tribes – family, a group of friends from college, work colleagues. Others might have none. When I told Ben I was working on […]