healing

Living Childfree

“What will you give birth to this year?” At the end of 2017, a friend asked me this question when I told her I was having surgery to remove my fallopian tubes, finalizing our decision to remain childfree. I may never give birth to a living child, but I can birth ideas, creative work, projects […]

Embracing Other-ness

“…to the mother within all of us – let her free to love, nurture, and heal so that we may all be better at raising each other” -Cleo Wade I am a childless mother. My children died in my womb, and as the years tick by, I will never say “Stop growing! You’re growing up […]

Shrinking Grief

The moment you realize you are losing someone you love, you can see the grief coming, approaching like an endless ocean that you know you are about to jump into and attempt to swim across. My first miscarriage came two weeks after finding out I was pregnant, and when I started to bleed, I watched […]

Rainbows

“Anybody who travels knows that you’re not really doing so in order to move around, you’re traveling in order to be moved.” – Pico Iyer   On Saturday morning, October 15th, I hit the road for the last time. I was almost home. After the past few days’ events, I was feeling even more grateful […]